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Another day turns into night
and I've been inside the whole time
the colors of trees change when they die
and come back to life, but I just die
You're alive, you're alive
don't let it pass you by
we'll miss you, we love you
you will be happy again in time
I didn't mean to hide
I can see myself from the outside
and I know what I'm doing is exactly what I shouldn't do
but it's hardest to change
when you're feeling blue
This was a mistake
and yeah we all die,
it just felt like time
like a decent time to sell high
But succumbing is weak
and ridiculous vices will not abide
all consuming drive
I'm consuming mine
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Go Forth
02:38
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I'd never hit the road before, I'd hardly sang a song
I didn't know it was possible to stare at nothing for so long
But there's one thing that I did know
and that's that it was time to go
I'd sat and moped for long enough
cried all my tears and all that stuff
so I went forth all by myself
yeah I went forth to define myself
Go forth young man, adventure awaits
Go forth young man, don't wait til it's safe
Just because life hands you pain and loss
don't mean you can't show that motherfucker who's boss
so go forth, young man. Yeah go be great.
I built up all my confidence, but I was unprepared
I'd never felt so free before, but never been so scared
I left the people I knew best
community I swore would last
my father even left me be
when I told him not to question me
and I went forth all on my own
yeah I went forth to the unknown
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Sweet Release
02:07
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Come on down, come on down
sweet release, think I'll know you when I see you
it's getting hot, and it's sticky out
I'd wring you if I could
but it's hard to breathe when the air's so hard to see through
go to town, go to town
sweet belief in a dream can really feed you
but life is short and it's running out
so you'd better make it good
and if you start to bleed, know at least it means the grass grew
What's that sound? Find that sound!
hit the streets and unfreeze the chill that held you
I spun my wheels, but now I'm spinning out
with nylon strings and wood
and nothing stands between us and everything we can do
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Two Bunnies
03:34
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When mama bear laid to rest inside
two bunnies appeared upon the lawn
their appearance there came as some surprise
and when mama bear left us they were gone
They came to carry her soul away
and waited there patiently for the time
and when her soul left 'twas theirs to take
to a place for a rest that was divine
For those of us who are still awake
the site of them rang a comfort tone
while the rest of us try to find our way
it's good to know mama's not on her own
But now i stay in my own dark cave
and the two little bunnies might be outside
i do not think they would come today
but i'll happily go with them when it's my time
to see my mama on the other side
And i know some day they'll come for mine
and my search for a home will be complete
me mama and the bunnies will all say hi
and we'll jump for joy in pastures green
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If I Hadn't Changed
02:57
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If I hadn't changed,
when you turned the lights out
If I hadn't changed,
would you set my heart aquiver?
Back in the day, you know the day we first met
I thought you were okay but had my eye on something better
Now far away, though we made our beds then,
I suddenly figured I could just forget her
Look at this face, it's a face of goodness
That appreciates I won't send her down the river
Sure there's a taste I don't wanna linger on
But there's a place where if we can we'll make it bigger
If I say it's so, I will make it so!
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Creator / Destroyer
03:55
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It's been more than ten months since last we spoke
I'm trying to start over with new folks
I've moved onto new girls in new places
but I'm still defined by our failed relations
All the things you did still haunt me
And time has healed some wounds, but I'm flawed, see?
I know I'm not the first here to feel betrayed
But to love again I must relieve this burdensome weight
The fire in my belly's still fueled by anger and hate
Try as I may to uplift it just ends up feeling fake
Only a year and a half after we went and looked at a house
Talk of forever and future plans feels foolish now
I forged a whole new identity
out of the monster you made me
And I believe you didn't want to hurt me
But knowing that you did didn't change a thing
I'd offer my self-satisfied forgiveness
But you forgave yourself first, you skipped a step!
And sure I want closure and to put this to rest
I don't care about your feelings or what happens next
'Cause forgiveness without remorse is just letting go
and I don't want to forget, I want to learn and grow
I fear the only thing that will make my debt feel repaid
is knowing that karma revisited you in spades
and if that's how the universe chooses to vindicate
the only lesson I'll have learned is that being vindictive pays
I forged a whole new identity
out of the monster you made me
no matter who has the last laugh, you created me
and we all know that means you can destroy me
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Heaven
04:05
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What am I waiting for? A shot at redemption?
An inkling of foresight toward some delayed gratification?
We all have places we want to go
Yeah we want them so badly
You can't convince me the point of life comes after the ending
So keep an eye on today
If you're not happy now then you never will be
And I don't mean to say it's not alright to dream
But today is the only guarantee
Maybe no one goes to heaven
But you know damn well
that you'll suffer like hell if you don't make peace
Me I'm going nowhere when I die
But in the ground with Xs for eyes
That's alright with me
When will it be good enough if you've been waiting for this long?
A second after you're blown away
you'll likely find something that is wrong
What am I looking for? the grass don't greener than this!
All the pleasures I've yet to have and all the pleasures that I miss
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I Wanted to Kiss You
04:12
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I wanted to kiss you, but I was afraid
if you didn't want to the magic would fade
and I could have been braver, I could have shot straight
but the cake was so perfect, I felt the icing could wait
But the magic was there, that's no question
we all felt something on that night
but your house is your home
and it was time to turn out the lights
Normally I would you, or at least ask to your face
but your signals were unclear so I did not push the pace
put my cards on the table after the game was done
now I can't seem to let go of that one night of fun
I know faint hearts never won fair lady
maybe some hearts are too fair for me
hope you'll always remember me fondly
and are flattered, not scared off, by embarassing honesty
In case it is what you wanted, guess I wanted to say
that I still think about it to this very day
but none of it would be worth it if you turned me away
so I used my discretion and hoped the magic would stay
Guess there's always the future, maybe in the next life
I could be your next suitor, you could be my next wife
yeah I could have been braver, I could have shot straight
but the cake was so perfect, I felt the icing could wait
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Lovers
02:42
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At Classon Ave and St. John's Place
Our corners met like Perfect Strangers
The boys would show their poker face
and girls ignored imminent danger
and everyone knew where they stood
and even though I missed my mother
I felt at home in many ways
and we were all feeling each other
But roaches came and bedbugs too
and so the time came for me and you
the glory years, the salad days
when we were all lovers
So then we left, one at a time
from window views of friends and neighbors
and we all went our separate ways
the fizzle fed our own endeavors
but that was then and this is now
we've been through how I felt all last year
I had to leave to see just how
those times deserved to be remembered
for then it was my home,
I'm sad to say it's gone
the glory years, the salad days
when we were all lovers
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Mississippi Noodle Hound
02:04
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For quite some time I felt quite blue
About where to be and what to do
'til somehow fates crossed me and you
and sent you on your way
from Mississippi to the woods of Maine
you run and skip and jump and play
I give you treats and heaps of praise
as long as you behave
Mississippi Noodle Hound
so glad to have you around
once was lost but now I'm found
and you helped me to get there
back when I was so depressed
you helped me get up outta my head
focusing on you instead of myself
made me feel so much better
You wag your butt when I come home
never feel like I'm alone
You take me to my comfort zone
when comfort's what I need
You bark your head off at the neighbors
and everyone who passes by
but to me you're a sweety-pie
having you here's good for me
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Peter Squires Madbury, New Hampshire
Combining humor & heartbreak, Peter Squires can brighten your day or bring you down with just a few chords. A witty songwriter & talented instrumentalist, Squires is never afraid to wear his heart on his sleeve.
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